Here is my two absolute favorites of the day..
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Tonight I was lucky enough to spend sometime with two very cute sisters. It is so refreshing to spend time with little ones. They have such a simple, fun and pure view on life. It’s a time when wearing footie pajama’s with a diaper bubble bottom and round toddler tummy is precious. A time when, a cupcake is invaluable once you’ve eaten all the frosting off the top. You can get lost in wooden tracks and trains for hours, making up enthralling stories of the coming and going. I am so thankful for the innocent, fun and refreshing night these two gave me. The bond these two have as sisters is very special, and very evident. Thanks girls, for a good night.
This morning I woke up to the rhythmic tapping of rain and scratching of branches on my bedroom window. It was soothing, calming but slightly saddening all the same. As a busy person by nature, the rain makes me feel stagnant, trapped and bored. Limited by the activity I can do outside. Which feels ironically similar to my life currently. Although, I am beginning to believe that God has me right here, right now for a very specific reason. For two months now I have been trying to figure out what that reason is. What I am doing wrong. Why God has not given me a nursing job, why my career has not started, why I feel like I am wasting my God given gifts by not contributing financially to my family… I have worked continually since high school, helping support myself and my dreams. However, right now I find myself here.. “unemployed”. I have a growing photography business, but I just wonder why I cannot break open my career of nursing, something I have worked so hard for. But last night, as I lay in bed crying with my husband (who held my hand with comfort), he told me what I needed to hear, but not exactly what I wanted to hear. And for that.. I am so grateful. The problem with the whole situation is the “I”. “I” am wanting to change things, “I” am wanting my nursing career to start, “I” am wanting all of my life's ambitions to unfold when “I” desire. But where is God in all this? I am a determined person, a driven person, a motivated person… and God made me that way. Right now He has blessed me with an amazing husband who works hard every day to support us. He has me here, with talent, skill and passion… and all the while I have been fighting Him. So today is a new day. The fight stops.
That tapping of rain on my window, is not sad. It is God. God telling me to embrace the opportunities that are right here, right now. To take that determination, motivation and driven nature to glorify Him, in the best way that He sees fit. Right now I am to serve and empower women as a volunteer nurse at the Women's Resource Clinic, support women as a volunteer Doula at the hospital, give parents a time to reconnect by caring for their children, focus on building a business that captures special moments of those around me through photography… and when or if he feels my nursing career should start, it will. Then at that time it will be all the more plentiful, powerful and amazing, then I could ever make it now.
So please become a part of this journey. Right now in the calm, in the rain… let me serve you. Together we will see what blooms in the spring.
“You heavens above, rain down my righteousness; let the clouds shower it down. Let the earth open wide, let salvation spring up, let righteousness flourish with it; I, the LORD, have created it.” Isaiah 45:8
I hope that everyone had a wonderful Valentines Day, that you felt loved, cared for, and appreciated. Although I am a romantic at heart, I have begun to think that Valentines Day is a “hallmark holiday”. The restaurants are over crowded, money is spent, flowers are bought and die, and the pressure to show the most special time. It seems that acts of kindness and a little spark of romance should take place everyday in a relationship. We should not only tell each other but show one-another how much love we have daily. Life gets busy, with work, shopping, meetings, cleaning, errands and so much more, and we often take advantage of what is right in front of us. Showing and giving love to those around us. My goal as a wife, daughter, sister and friend is to continually give love.
I have married the world’s best husband. He is truly my best friend. Someone I can tell all my fears, hopes, ambitions and doubts to… he listens (as best any man can, haha) and offers love. My husband was such a support during the trials of nursing school, he is my unrealistic optimist who can brighten my moods and challenges my outlook, he inspires me to grow deeper in my faith, and most of all he loves me unconditionally. I love him so very much, and these past eight months have been unbelievable. I have been inspired to grow as a person constantly, to adapt to a life shared with someone, and learned to love in ways I never thought before.
Since I am still a romantic, yesterday I decided to be a domestic house-wife and attempt to spoil my husband. I spent the day cleaning, organizing and straightening our home. A clean home is a happy home… After the home was clean, I messed it up again. For our valentines day meal, I decided to make homemade raviolis, from scratch! Yes, egg yoke, flour, cheese, mushrooms, water, olive oil and my favorite stand mixer. It was quite the process… lets just say flour was everywhere, the kitchen-aid shorts the power in the kitchen (all mixing occurs on the living room floor), sticky dough, gooey cheese, lop-sided ravioli's… but surprisingly lots of fun and they tasted good too!
Thank You Matt for being an amazing Husband. You are loved! Bon Appetite.
“Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves.” Romans 12:9